She is an experience!!

I feel like writing something. Maybe I will write about last week. Some lessons learnt. Some experiences.

To be in love is a great feeling. To receive pure love in return is even more gratifying and fulfilling. Even more so when it was not expected in the first place. I went to her with very little expectation .. but in retrospect I feel like she treated me like a son and a king at the same time. She gave me so much love as a mother. Yet at the same time gave me so much attention. It was incredible. I could not believe I deserved so much.

She tried to speak to me, but I could only mumble in return. You see, I was not expecting to have a conversation with her. So I did not know what to say in return. All I could was to express my heart-felt gratitude for every thing. And be amazed at every experience. So many inner experiences. Feeling her energy that is the cause of creation and beauty. Feeling her inner silence that is the substratum of this creation.

And her sense of timing. I always found myself at the right place at the right time for the right event. The right people would find me and allot me the right jobs. It is just unbelievable. All I did was to let myself be guided by an inner force and I was in tune.

I do miss her now that she is gone, but some of her memories are very clear in my mind. To sum up - Ammachi is not a person, she is an experience that everyone must experience at least once.