Her

There is something healing about the album "Water Down the Ganges". As soon as I hear the sound of flowing water at the beginning of some of the tracks, it instantly calms my mind and relieves all stress.

How do I describe this? I don't have a great flair for writing or poetry as other people do. So my descriptions sometimes fail to exactly convey what I want to express.

Today, I played the tabla for our bhajan program in front of Mata Amritandamayi. And I sang a hastily-practiced last minute bhajan as well, which a lot of people appreciated. Though I did not have an intense desire to sing in front of Her, I was still very joyous later on to have successfully seen the end of this endeavor. We had been practicing for months but most importantly dealing with frictions resulting from interaction with each other. And my task was that of the coordinator. Not an easy job at all. While I understand guys pretty well in general, I find it hard to relate to girls. And it was no different even in this case. But I think it all came together well today. Sigh. Am relieved now.

Later on, as She was walking back after Her program, I was fortunate to get a chance to talk to Her for a second. And I expressed my "ananda" .. for truly I felt very happy. And I got a wide smile and a pat on the cheek in return :). And then She placed Her hand in my hands .. and She kept them placed there for several moments and then slowly She started to go ahead. That is when I brought Her hand to my lips and kissed Her hand!! It was impulsive and seemed the most natural thing in the world to do. And then She slowly removed Her hand from mine. Aah it was such a beautiful moment.

The similarity is uncanny. She reminds me of Him. So much. I hope my kiss reaches Him ... if it did, then all that I have truly wanted in this life was fulfilled today. No regrets anymore.