Thoughts

Freshly melted water trickling down from the snow in the mountains. There is something about the purity of that water that enthralls me.

Rebirth is difficult. And painful. But was it necessary?

I go to the beach so often nowadays. There is something soothing about going to the beach at midnight when there is no one else around and just standing for an hour listening to the sound of the waves.

After a meditation session, many times I forget that I am in a male body. I feel like my real self is neither male nor female. It is just a genderless impartial observer. Just an experiencer.

My forehead throbs and the top of my head tingles .. is this a sign of something to come in the future? Day by day, the number of people who understand my mental state is dwindling .. so I prefer to remain mostly quiet and silent.

I just realized that my ability to vent and express my emotions has drastically reduced over the past few months. In some ways, I feel dry emotionally and so feel frustrated to not be able to a rich plethora of emotion as I used to do before. On the other hand, there is a part within me that is perfectly content to not express emotions.